I am tired of studying.....make it stop

Are there any good online photo services?  Like to enlarge photo's...particularly B&W ones?  I've tried kodak and shutterfly...but it never comes out black...the blacks are always more gray-ish looking.

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So i know i dorkishly keep talking about my clogs, but they are SOOO comfortable! hahaha. i wear them all around my apt.  I tried them on with my slacks...not TOO ugly...they just look like giant Doc Marten's, which i've always thought looked like clown shoes.  But whatever, i still highly recommend them.

So, today was my last presentation of the semester....this year, i've given three 20 minute presentations.  And i was surprised at how calm i was at todays.  Needless to say, since i'm still trying to get over my cough, i sounded awful and couldn't portray my enthusiasm about the subject (*snicker*).  But at my first presentation, my heart would be RACING throughout the entire thing....my hands would shake....i'd be SOOOOO nervous.  But by today's presentation, i just felt like i was talking to someone about the subject...not so much presenting (and i was the least prepared for this one).  My heart didn't race at all....it was very comfortable! YAY! I think i have overcome my fear of public speaking!

My next challenge:  to engage in chit chat without wanting to gouge my eyes out. 

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Ugh i am sick again....actually all of Boston is sick...almost everyone i know...teachers, coworkers, classmates...all sick with i don't know what.  I think it's part allergies, part cold, part URI.  It sucks. i have all this phlegm rattling around in my chest, and i keep trying to cough it up, but i doesn't come up...and all that coughing is killing my throat...so now i am rather hoarse........and i have to give a 15 minute presentation tomorrow. 

Sometimes i get that itch in the back of my throat that can't be relieve with coughing and i end up gagging.  THat is not the most appealing thing to watch.

one more week left of school then finals, then i'm DOOOOOONE!

*EDIT* I got the clogs in the mail today...and OMG...now i know why people wear them.  They remind me of clown shoes but are SOOOOOOOOOO freakin comfortable.  THey really really feel like walking on pillows.  I can not  get over how good these feel on my feet.....they're really light too...lighter than sneakers. 

So my question is, since they're backless, do i wear socks with them?!!!! or are they like sandals? 

The brand that i got is SoftWalk......what are the other comfortable clog brands?! (i have wide feet).

i caved and bought the ugly but super comfortable clogs that i said i would never ever wear for my rotations next year. I didn't know there were so many clog companies. So i opted for this one (not the typical clog that most people wear in the hospital) because they come in wide sizes....and they have a slight heel....and they have that pretty flower design. This was the least ugly clog out of all of them. Sigh. I realized after standing 3 hours in boots, that i would not survive the entire day on my feet... no sneakers allowed and flats never have enough cushioning...so clogs it is.  Ugh...clogs are ugly

I just have to say that yesterday's J5 concert was AMAZING.  They were SOOOO good...they said they're coming out with a new album in July! YAY!  But they were totally down to earth...dressed in jeans and a t-shirt...no bling, no latest fashion type thing...it was very different from this generation's rappers, who are all show and no substance. 

But it was funny, cuz i was standing on the balcony area, right over the stage, next to this one dude.  He looked like your typicall white, businessman.....clean cut, button down shirt and slacks...kind of dorky...possibly in his mid-30's  He knew EVERY WORD to EVERY SONG!! hahahaha. I think he was screaming louder than EVERYONE!! Go figure, huh?! hahaha!

At the end, they came back out and freestyled for us...it was AMAZING (i know i keep using that word..but i can't think of another one to describe them).  How do they do that?!!!! 

At the end, they made us all hold up our hands with our index finger pointing up...and told us we were all different, but united through music...and then told us to add our middle finger (peace sign)...and then we all had to yell "peace".  It was very cute.

My friends were totally laughing at me cuz i was screaming like a little girl.  At first, there wasn't a lot of room up front, but being the little asian girls that we are, we squeezed in between people.  The guy next to me actually tried to blcok me out with his elbow...didn't work buster....I ride the NYC transit system, i KNOW how to cram myself into little spaced.

I LOVE J5!!!

I am sick.  My throat started hurting yesterday, and today it's a full blown sore throat....and my ears are all clogged up and i can't really hear anything that well.  It's quite the uncomfortable feeling....it's like when you're on the plane...and you get that feeling RIGHT before your ears pop....like that...but constantly.  I don't know if it's allergy related cuz i started getting really bad allergies this past week....but i've never gotten a sore throat with allergies before, and i didn't  have post nasal drip.  ugh.

But today, i had my business plan poster presentation.  That class is a joke.  first of all, we had to write up a 20 page formal business plan....okay, none of us have business degrees....and the class is a practice management class (so for people who want to be managers at CVS or whatever)...and it's required.  So the goal was to come up with a product or service that is pharmacy related.  It was pretty much a HUGE invention fair.  You know that show, america's next inventor? it was VERY similar.  We all got together in one big hall...and showed off our inventions. it is SO STUPID.  and then we all get graded and they choose a "winner". 

My group was the only group that created a service...so we chose to open an asthma clinic in an underprivileged area because many of them are uninsured and can't afford proper health care.  And we'd try to get them free material and meds.  At the same time, we'd be decreasing emergency room costs for the local hospitals and saving them money.  It's all very grassroot and TOTALLY not what they were looking for. So, none of the judges liked it.  They wanted a nifty gadget that would make lots of money.  i felt kind of bad since it was my idea....it's the HIPPIE in me, fighting for what's right!!! hahahahaha. 

When i worked at the family clinic in bed-stuy, i used to ALWAYS see like little kids who came in gasping for air because their parents couldn't afford the meds.  Shoot, medicine is EXPENSIVE, even if you have insurance!  And when you have asthma, you need to take some of the meds like EVERY day...it's a chronic disease...it's not like an infection.  That adds up! I would feel so bad for them, they looked so miserable. 

But seriously, it's great and all that we come up with all these great little toys, but what if we FIRST focused on those who are less fortunate and try to take care of them?! We are HEALTH CARE PROVIDERS....NOT business people.  You have so many people who can't even afford to pay for their medications....what good is a technologically advanced gadget going to do...there's no way they can afford that.  It's only the rich people who will be able to...and that just feeds the class gap...the wealthy getting wealthier and the poor getting poorer.

Oh, and THEN, SOOO many people baked cookies and brought in candy for to give to the judges.   I was like, um...this is supposed to be a professional business presentation....not some college fair.  You never see people giving donald trump cookies on the apprentice!?

So i was awakened at 7 AM by the sounds of helicopters hovering overhead.  I HATE THAT SOUND.  So today is the Boston marathon...hence all the hooplah.  So then at 9:30 AM, i head out the door to the post office to drop off my taxes.  And i have to walk by fenway park to get to the post office.  I guess there's an afternoon game cuz there was a HUGE MASS of people.  i was like UGH....i had to walk in the street.  But the weird thing is, i don't even think these people had tickets to the game....cuz they were all waiting on lines to get into the local bars (yes, at 9:30AM)...and the lines were like wrapped around the block.

So after perusing my CD rack (AKA top shelf of my bookcase), i realized, i am no longer a hip-hop girl....well, at least not of this generation's hip hop.  Aside from my older hip-hop CD's and my Kanye West CD (my only newer hip hop CD), everything else is rock/alternative.  I LOVE green day now, even though back in HS, when everyone else loved them, i thought they were crap.  And of course, back in HS, when i loved hip hop, everyone else thought it was crap.  How times have changed.

But seriously, today's hip hop SUCKS.  I don't know if you guys have this song played on the radio down there, but Boston LOVES playing the song, "I'm in love with a stripper".  The first time i heard that, i was like are you SERIOUS?!  And don't get me started about the recent lyricists.  Some of these people "rhyme" by using the SAME WORD two lines in a row!!!

My new favorite album for now: One Tree Hill soundtrack #2.  hahahaha.  it is SOOOO good. i don't even watch one tree hill...but the music is SO GOOD. i  highly recommend it!

change in plans.  Not going home.  This sucks big time.  The manager screwed up the schedule and the girl who agreed to cover my shift is now working another shift scheduled for the same time as my shift...so she can't cover my shift anymore.  And i called every single person in the pharmacy and no one can/is willing to cover my shift.  And i can't call out sick cuz once you send out an email asking for shift coverage, you're not allowed to call out sick on that day unless you have like documentation of like being in the hospital or something like that.  If you do call out sick, that is reason for being fired....and it's been done before.

So i'm stuck in freakin BEANtown for the long weekend. 

So, today is my BIG professional-like presentation.....supposedly, this is what it's like on rounds.  I'm nervous.  Not so much about the presentation....but the questions afterwards.  Cuz my prof is a biatch and asks all these trivial questions that no one else would ask......like every single little detail aobut the clinical trials.  It is rather annoying.

Other than that, long weekend this weekend! YAY!!!! The only advantage to being in a small city.....when they hold the Boston marathon, there is no way for people to get to work....so they declare a holiday.  No one works on the day of the Boston marathon!

To start off my strenuous day, i shall now eat a breakfast for champs.  Fried egg, bacon, hash brown and tea....mebbe some outmeal if i'm still hungry.  Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....i LOVE breakfast.