So, i feel as though i am tired all the time....the first month of school i was okay.  School and lectures were bearable....but the past few weeks, i have been feeling SOOOOO tired.  During class, i just totally zone out and i can't follow the lecture...and i'm not the type to sleep during class, but all i can think about is going home and taking a nap.  And once i get home, i can't fall asleep, but i'm not really awake either.  It's really weird. I feel almost like a zombie.

And i do get enough sleep....well, not like enough enough...but i try to get at least 7 hours...and on the weekends, i sleep like 9-10 hours.

I don't know what it is...i just feel like my eyelids are always so heavy....and for some reason, my contacts keep drying out really early, so that adds to the effect.

What should i do?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and what is wrong with me?!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

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I am sick AGAIN...my throat HURTS and so does my head, and my lymph nodes are swollen.  what is wrong with me...my immune system has NOT been functioning up to par lately.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JE-YING!!!!

You old now, too!!!

This is the color of my room at home (the blue)....i did everything myself.  It used to be this nasty dark teal color that was painted over wallpaper...and was there since we moved into the house 25 years ago.  But during college, i wanted to make it nice since i would be living at home (or that was my parent's plan anyway).  But my dad said if i wanted to paint the room, i had to do everything myself.  So i did...moved all the furniture...laid out the tarp....scraped off the old paint....spackles....sanded....primed and painted....in the middle of the august.  it was freakin hot...i think i lost many a brain cells during that time inhaling all those fumes.

Anyhow, my landlord has finally turned on the heat...i guess these 40 degree nights have become too cold for him. It was REALLY cold in here...i was in my down coat and a hat....cheapo...i think he was trying to hold out for as long as possible because our building is heated by oil....all paid by him.  There are a lot of apt's in boston where the tenants have to pay for the heating bill...it comes out to like $300 a month for a small apartment....it's crazy.  thank goodness mine is not one of them.

But the semester is more than half over.  can you believe that? time is going by SOOO fast...sometimes i think, WOAH i've been up here for more than two years!!!!  it totally doesn't feel like it!  another two more and i'll be home!!!

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*edit*  where are the cool lounges/ bars to hang out now?  Gemini's closed, so i need to find a new favorite.  i don't need trendy...i just want good music and no cover!

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So, today for one of my classes, my group had to do a 40 minute presentation...but there's only three of us, so it's basically like 15 minutes per person.

So, i KNOW I talk fast .... so before i started, i kept telling myself, talk slow....talk slow.  ANd i REALLY thought i was talking slow....like i was putting conscious effort into talking slow.  And it is really annoying having to talk slow because that is a big pet peeve of mine.  I can not stand it when people talk slow...i feel like reaching into their mouths and pulling all their words out.

Anyhow, afterwords, the prof came and gave us tips regarding our presentation skills.  ANd i know i'm not a strong presenter....first of all, my voice doesn't carry that well, so i have to be at almost shouting in order to project...and then my throat gets all dry and starts to hurt...and second of all, i can never remember what's on the slide unless i look at it (even with multiple rehearsals). 

So anyway, he gets up to me...and he's like, you've got the same problem as me....you talk way too fast.  and i was like UGH what?! cuz i really really thought i was talking slow.  But in hindsight, maybe i was talking fast because the girl who went before me had 15 slides and it took her 13 minutes to cover it (she was trying to talk slow too and ended up speaking one word at a time...like a robot...that's almost a minute per slide...and these are not dense slides!!!!!).....i had 15 slides...it took me 6 minutes. HAHAHAHAHA.  I think if i spoke normally, i could've finished it in 4 minutes!

So anyhow, for those of you who give presentations? how do i fix this?!!!  In my mind, i feel like i'm talking so slow!!!  If i were in New York, NO ONE would think i was talking too fast!  it's all relative! hahahaha.  The guy who present after me spoke at the "correct" pace, but to me it seemed SOOOOO painfully slow.  I don't think i can do that!

No more rain!!!! but now it's mad windy.  there are huge tree branches everywhere.  CAN I HAVE SOME NORMAL WEATHER PLEASE??!

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UGH...isn't getting the time of the month bad enough as is?  Isn't enough that we're like HEMMORRHAGING (people say it's only 1 tbsp of blood....but there is NO WAY!!!)?  Why must it be accompanied by OTHER bad things....like pain....and migraines....and gas....and bloating...and DIARRHEA?!  Guys always complain about having to bear the brunt of "PMS"....psh...whatever, i would much rather be on the receiving end of PMS that go through the aforementioned monsters.  Did I mention DIARRHEA?!  I think that is by far the worst of it...it is hard to predict...and you can't just ignore it.  It also encompasses so many of the other monsters...like gas....and pain....and bloating. Being a girl sucks. 

Excuse me if i am being crass.  My mother would be so ashamed

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*edit #2"  YAY!!! the rafting company we went with finally posted the pictures from our trip.  GO look!!!  Look under the calendars on the right side...the ones that say "penobscot"...under Sept. 11.  I'm in pictures #33-36 for sure...i think i'm in some of the earlier ones too, but you may not be able to see me...our raft may have been covered by the water.  100000 eprops to the one who can figure out which one is me!!!

So, I've got a cold   But at least it's not the flu...just a little cold. 

With this crazy weather, the little park I walk through to get to school has now become a little swamp.  I could walk on the sidewalk that goes around it...but that would take me an extra 2 minutes...and i time my departure from the apartment so that if i cut across the park, i'll get to class exactly on time.  I hate walking in late, so even if i'm one minute late, if class has started, i'll just not go.  But anyways, my timbs are a mess now.

SO, do you guys prefer watching a movie in the theatres or at home when the DVD comes out?  I for one, really enjoy watching movies at home.  It's just so comfortable...to be in my bed with my comforter and a bag of popped popcorn.  I can go to the bathroom at any time...I can eat/drink whatever i want.  Going to the theatres are so annoyingly expensive now..if you want to eat and drink stuff during you need like $20!   You know how many DVD's and bags of microwave popcorn i can get for $20?!!!!

*edit*  so as of today, i HAVE heard of Taunton, MA.  It was on the news today....because they just found a body in the dump.  Welcome to Taunton, jeyi99!!!

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Mmmm....minty green.

Anyhow, i need some sun please.  Enough of this cloudy, rainy shtuff.  But yesterday, I pulled all of my winter coats out of retirement.  They all have that musty smell that clothes get when you store them for months...away from air.  So now they air-ing out...especially the down coats.

1.5 hours til a big DSM exam.  Can I just tell you guys that i really really hate cardiology.  I will try my hardest never to come down with cardiovascular disease because it is such a complicated system.  I doubt that any student really learns it that well. There are so many drugs...and they all overlap within the cardiovascular diseases except with each disease the preference with which you choose the meds differ.   I think only the older physicians/pharmacists are good at cardiology because they've probably "injured" enough people to know, okay...i won't do that again. 

Yo mangs, i've got gas...and it does not feel good.  I can't get it out...i've got constipated gas.

Anyhow, it is starting to get pretty darn cold around here...i think it was a high of 50 today...with mad wind.  These past few days, I've been able to see my breath in the air.  However, I refuse...that's right, REFUSE to wear a heavy coat.  You know the minute i put on a heavy coat, mother nature will be like, ok, she's ready...bring on the snow.  So today, i walked to school with only a sweater and thoughts of warm baths because I am not ready to invite the winter in now (or ever, for that matter).

Most people ask me, well you're from NY...the weather's the same right?  It is NOT...it is at least 10 degrees warmer in NY....that is a very important 10 degrees.  There is a big difference between 50 degrees and 60 degrees.  60 degrees still counts as mild, pleasant weather.  Once you go below 50 degrees, it is officially cold. 

So it is with a DEEP DEEP sigh that I acknowledge the coming of my least favorite season.  The season where you wake up to darkness and go home to darkness....the season where four layers of clothes make no difference....the season where you get frostbite through fur-lined waterproof winter boots....the season where you have to walk an inch at a time over frozen melted snow otherwise you'll bust your ass.  Oh, and if we get another big blizzard, I think i will cry.