me have big test tomorrow
me notes take up 3/4 of a notebook…for one test
me have to draw many big structures
me have many things to memorize
me don’t want to
me want to watch Extreme Makeover: Home Edition…taped it last night
me want to watch Desperate Housewives….also taped last night
me already bought a large hazelnut coffee in preparation for tonight
(me don’t have coffee in apt…only tea)
me smart
*kinda long and graphic*
so…i had an interesting weekend. ON saturday, i cut myself
while trying to break a glass ampule at work. They look like this:
So to get to the drug inside, you have to break them like this:
THe ampules are cut slightly aroudn the neck so that it will break
cleanly when you snap the top off. PRoblem is….usually, they
never break cleanly. And the larger the ampule, the thicker the
glass…and the harder for you to break the top off cleanly.
Soooo…most of you can see where this is going. I sliced my
thumb up pretty good on a big ampule of fentanyl. I felt it go
in…and i looked down and saw that my glove was slit open….and then
i saw the blood..a.nd was like CRAP. It was pretty deep….the
blood was kinda pouring out NON-STOP and i couldn’t get it to stop
bleeding. But I think a little of the fentanyl got into the
laceration….and if you want anything to go in, it’s FENTANYL (one of
the strongest anesthetics around….usually used in epidurals during
labor). SO, i was able to wash the cut out thoroughly with iodine
without feeling a thing.
BUT…i really couldn’t get it to stop bleeding. I put three
bandages on it…one to cover the cut..and one below and one above..and
half an hour later, i felt somethign squishy in my glove…and when i
took off my glove, my entire hand was covered with blood. so i
went to wash that off, and it was still pouring out…and i didn’t
really know what to do…so i went and put SIX bandages on it…same
set up as before…just double layered it.
Went back into the IV room and an hour later, when i went to take off
my glove for lunch…same deal. i was like shoot…i probably
need stitches…but i really didn’t want stitched cuz i had gone
through that before..and it was kind’ve traumatizing.
SO by then, one iof the techs noticed that i was still bleeding and
told me he’d finish up the morning sutff and told me to go do the
paperwork aspect of the IV room. so i did…and fortunaely, the
bleeding slowed down cuz i stopped using my hand.
but in the afternoon, i had no choice but to make IV’s again..and it
bled again…UGH. so i was like, this is GROSS…both for myself
and for the patient. SOmeone should’ve told me to go home
already. ANd i couldn’t just leave because i’d get written up and
reported for that. but by the afternoon, i don’t know if this was
just psychological, i was not feeling good at ALL. I felt kinda
dizzy and nauseaus and just really dazed. And so, i made quite a
few errors in the IV room…which were my fault (sort of…but that’s
another story) ..but i just felt like i couldn’t focus my eyes or my
brain. ANd plus the pharmacists on call were the bitchy females
adn they were just yelling and yelling at me…and even then i couldn’t
really focus in on what they were saying and i just wanted to go
home.
but yeah, so i decided that day that i wasn’t going to come in on sunday because
i knew if i kept using my hand, the wound would never heal…and plus
it’s just plain DISGUSTING to have to see a bloddy hand everytime i
take of my glove…and it’s totally unsafe for the patients, even
though i have my glove on…there’s a high risk of contamination.
So i managed to find someone to cover me…and when i told the other
techs and the pharmacist, they were giving me attitude!!! THe one
tech was like, “oh, that sucks…i poked myself with a needle
once….oh and have a nice little vacation…enjoy your day off
tomorrow.” I was like WTF…i’ve poked myself too…and this is
not some poke…i’m praying that i don’t need to get stitches and
you’re acting as if it’s a small scrape?! And the pharmacist kept
harping on whether or not i had the coverage approved or not..and how i
couldn’t have the day off unless the boss (who was not at work and not
picking up his phone) approved it. i was like SHUT UP….it’s not
even medically safe for me to be there with my thumb bleeding over
everything (it was all over the paperwork i was doing)…it’s totally
gross.
I think that since saturday was such a horrible day..and just
everything went wrong, that i they thought i was tryign to get out of
another day like that. And even if i couldn’t get it approved
(which i finally did),
i would think that a more rationally minded person would
understand. only the one tech that told me to rest my hand and do
paperwork…he was sympathetic..he was like if you can’t find anyone to
cover, just call in sick.
BTW…the finger didn’t stop bleeding until sunday afternoon…and
that’s without using it. But by sunday, it was just oozing…not
pouring out. but still…had i gone to work, i would’ve still
been bleeding badly. STUPID PEOPLE.
today was my first exam of the semester…sigh. and now the
madness begins…i REALLY HUMONGO exam this coming tuesday (and i have
to do my internship rotation tonight and work this
weekend…aaaargh)….and then three the week after that…and then at
least 1 or 2 EACH WEEK for the rest of the semester…not counting my
group presentations, which will, as usual, be a pain in my arse.
And at the very end of the semester, i get a chance to take my yearlong
cummulative finals for med chem and p-col…which is an extraordinarily
large amount of info to cram into my poor brain….yeah, i have to
figure out how to do that. REALLY FUN STUFF!!!!
so today, my virology prof held a review session for our HOMONGO
exam….and she kinda put up practice questions to give us an idea of
what to expect (and it’s bad….reeeeally bad). Anyhow, she’d
pose the question…and we were supposed to tell her the
answer…excpet in these large lecture classes, no one really calls out
the answer….you just hear a lot of rumbling. But this one kid,
i guess he wanted to show off that he knew stuff, he like SCREAMED out
the answers every time. And yknow how the prof’s like the repeat
the question…or ask it in several different ways to try to get the
class to give the right answer…he would answer whatever asnwer it is
after EACH modification of the question. So for example…if it
was a T or F questions…she’s pose the questions…he’d yell out
FALSE. …and either she would ignore him or couldn’t hear him
(although i don’t see how that’s possible)….and she’s reword the
question to get more people to answer…and he’d yell FALSE again…and
he would do this every time. MAD ANNOYING.
Most of the publics schools here have had monday through tomorrow
off…some have friday off too. are they lucky or are they
lucky?!!! Every night, i sit and watch that scrolling list of
schools and i pray that i’ll see my school…but that only happened
once 
But yeah…looks like we might get another 10″ with
today’s and tomorrow’s snow. great.
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when i left the apt at 7:50 this morning, it had already snowed an inch
or so. It is 1:30…it is still snowing. The weather
forecasters said 3-5″. They lie. It’s going to be
more. It was already at least 3″ when i left school at 10.
This time, we got the wet, heavy snow. This better not be
blizzard part two…they didn’t even finish shoevelling from round
1. STUPID SNOW. i can’t wear any of my usual cute sneakers til the snow clears out…i have to wear ugly snow boots.
i need to fill out my tax return stuff so i can file my fafsa….excpet
EVERY year, i forget how i did it the year before. Well, i did
something wrong last year, cuz i got a notice from the irs saying i
miscalculated something. eeek. but yeah…so who would like to do
my taxes for me!
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So, i am recopying my notes for my Virology & Anti-infectives
class…the prof speaks SOOOO fast that my notes are totally
scribbles. A lot of people record the lectures…but i don’t
know..i just don’t like doing that. It seems like cheating at
note taking or something… ANyhow, so our exam is on tuesday…and
I’ve copied over 3 lectures worth of notes and i have PASSED the
halfway point of those black and white composition notebooks.
(yes, i know it’s very elementary school, but i like them better than
spiral bound because the pages don’t rip out). And i am writing
on BOTH sides of hte page. AND i still have 2 more lectures to go
before the exam! so in 3 weeks of class, i will have almost
filled one ENTIRE composition notebook with notes. INSANITY, i
tell you.Usually that book lasts an entire semester!!!! Now it
will barely last ONE EXAM!
yeah, so in addition to the exact chemical structure of these drugs,
they teach us exactly which strains of bacteria each antibacterial is
used for…AND the exact dosing…like such and such mg, this many
times a day…and all the precautions and monitoring parameters.
Okay, but there are a lot of them…are we REALLY expected to memorize
all of that?! it’s stupid…because i’m sure the professor does not
know them by heart…fine maybe the precautions and stuff like
that…but the exact dosing?!!!! how can we possibly remember
that for every single agent?! it’s craziness…AND the chemical
structures? these are not small simple things…they’re
humongous!!! And don’t get me started on bacterial names…i
can’t spell anything i can’t pronouce…and i can’t pronounce any of
them.
yeah…this will not be a fun exam to study for….not to mention i
have a big exam friday…so i can’t start studying til after
friday…and then i have to work this weekend. AAAAAAARGH.
this semester is going to be more hellish than the last….AND i’m
working more cuz the hospital changed their intern hour requirements so
now i have to do one evening shift a week in addition to the every
other weekend. *SOB* Maybe i’ll just drop out of school and be a
pharmacy technician fo’ life. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Then i can just make IV’s
all day forever. Man, if that paid more, i’d totally do it!
pics from after the blizzard (boston doesn’t do that whole pushing snow
into drainage system/dumping snowin rivers things….they let things
melt naturally…so this snow will be around for a LOOOONG time!)
This is what i called the snow monster on my fire escape.
note: the bottom is all railings…we had so much that snow
accumulated THIS much on top of the railings. But it started out
as just a coating on top of each rail…and became this by the time i
woke up in the morning.
This is a ginormous pile of snow left by the plowers…..Just for
perspective, that’s a standard height street lamp….the pile ends just
a few feet under the top!!!
This is the little field i had to cross. It’s pretty well
travelled, so you can see the paths most often taken over that past few
days. Each path is only wide enough for one person since it was
formed by each person walking in the footsteps of the person
before…so it poses quite a problem when two people need to get past
each other. Like today…a pack of 3 men were in my way. I
looked at them….they looked at me….I glared at them….they stepped
aside into the deep snow! muahahaha!
This is the little pond/swamp that’s part of the little park. The
water is BLACK…pure BLACK…it’s nasty and breeds lotsa mosquitos in
the summer. YECH.
Snow wrinkles
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The back of a bench at school…i liked the black against the white!
The skies today….TOTALLY clear…as if there had been no storm at all!
Question of the day:
Do boys in relationships secretly like being whipped? I know,
when accused, boys always refute it… “nah, man….nah, i ain’t
whipped…i wear the pants” because no man wants other people to think
that the woman has that collar around his neck fastened at the very
first hole. But deep down inside, could it be that they actually
like it? and want it? Is it like having a mommy around all the
time, but better?
I am all for a kind-hearted, considerate man, but an all out whipped
man…..eh….not so great. I like a little challege. What
fun is it if your man just follows you around and says, “yes, ma’am”
all day long. I might as well get a monkey or something if i
wanted that. As unappealing as it is to have a whipped guy, i
must say it is a thousand fold more unappealing to watch a whipped guy
in action. Yech.
So fellows…..please answer my question of the day….if you are
indeed whipped, do you really like it? And if you are whipped,
but would not like to expose that, you may answer in the form of,
“well, i have a friend and he’s whipped and he really likes/dislikes
it”…or something of that nature. Thank you!
see protected
pictures from the storm:
The sky was this really weird pinkish color the whole night! THis
was at like 10PM day 1 of the storm…before we got really dumped on.
And some random ones taken at home while i was bored:
My camera has this candle option that lets me take pics of candles in
the dark without flash, but with a shorter shutter speed than night
time pics…so i get full luminosity without it looking like just a
candle in a brightly lit room.
And this is my reflection in my teapot! tee hee
>
i think it finally stopped snowing. we got almost 30″
WOAH…the biggest snow i have ever seen! plus there were winds
of like 50 MPH….that really hurt when the snow whipped against your
face.
NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!! although i do have to work the evening shift…darn. but NO SCHOOL!
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woah…it snowed a LOT…i’d say over 2 feet where i am. I
couldn’t really get out the front door cuz all the snow was piled up
against it (darn you, work). Then i had to trudge trough a
small open park (short cut) cuz nothing was shovelled…at
points, the snow was up to my mid thigh. I didn’t think i was
going to make it across that field…it was so exhausting. At one
point, i had to reach for a tree to pull myself up and out because i
couldn’t raise my leg high enough. i thought i was going to have
a heart attack..i was like oh, this is how people die. Half way
through, i had to stop to rest…and that was just the beginning of my
walk. Luckly (thank you God) when i finally made it across the
field (i was literally wheezing and panting), a bus pulled up. He
was just picking up any pedestrians and dropping them off where they
needed to go! It make me 20 minutes late for work cuz he had to
drop off other people, but whatever, at least i didn’t have to walk.
But, man was that a tough walk.
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