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Another two movie reviews....i should do this for a living instead...watch movies...and give my opinion...render fear in the hearts of producers and actors everywhere...MUAHAHAHAHA....MUAHAHAHAHA.

Movie #1...The Believer...it's basically about a Jewish Neo-nazi....paradoxical? Exactly!  The role is actually played by that scrawny white kid in Remember THe Titans...the one that volunteered to leave the championship game cuz he couldn't keep up with the faster black kids.  But the movie is definitely one of those that make you say "hmmmm" after you're through watching it.  the movie is basically about self-identity...the struggle between the religion he grew up with and the life he's living now.  Good movie to watch if you want something deep and artsy.

Movie #2...Osama...the very first movie allowed to be shot in afghanistan.  It's actually very well shot.  It's about a young afghan girl who's  disguised as a boy in order to bring in some sort of income for her family.  All the males in her family have been killed in war and women were not allowed to work.  So it's her tale of survival...and i won't give any more away....but this one is a definite must see!!!

ok more reviews to come!!!

my birthday is in two and a half weeks. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. TWENTY FIVE.....so finkin old.  i was talking to one of the pharmacists at work...and turns out..she's YOUNGER than me cuz she went into the program right after high school. i was like OMG....

but there probably will not be any big party this year...it's to difficult to plan from up here. but presents are still welcome.  HAHAHAHAHA.

Finally watched The Last Samurai.  When it came out,  i totally didn't want to watch it cuz i don't like Tom Cruise.  Especially after he left the lovely Nicole to be with The Spanish Whore as i call her.  But i gave in....and it was REALLY REALLY REALLY good.  I almost didn't realize that tom cruise was in it, cuz i thought the story and the cinematography was so good.  I really felt like i was right there.  It totally emphasized the japanese culture and their traditional views on war versus the westernized view.  The samurai's fought for their people...with honor...and the westerners....well, we all know how and why the westerners fight....just look at the Americans now.  The movie reminded me of something I've seen before...but i can't place my finger on it....i had a slight deja vu feeling as i was watching it.  Was there another movie about Japan....like about japan and westerners?

Anyhow, watching the movie made me kinda glad that the Taiwanese never fully rejected the japanese culture.  I know that other eastern asian countries hate the japanese with a passion and probably rightfully so.  But according to my parents and grandparents, I feel like although they were somewhat oppressed by the japanese, the japanese also began the industrialization of taiwan...and now taiwan is one of the wealthiest asian countries.  I also think that compared to what chiang kai chek's influx of chinese immigrants did to the taiwanese people, the japanese occupation was nothing.  But I'm glad that the taiwanese culture is partly influenced by the japanese...it kinda separates us from the chinese culture since they probably rejected anything japanese.  For example, when i was a kid, i wore kimono's around the house.  Not like the full out geisha kimono's, but they were like house robes...but kimono style...i don't know if you guys know what i'm talking about.  We still use japanese words as part of the taiwanese vocab...like obasan and sukiyaki.  And some of my extended family, even some in america, still sleep on tatami's or have tatami rooms. 

Anyhow, GO TAIWAN...i'm glad nothing happened during the inauguration...may taiwan stay STRONG through A-bian's next presidential term.

for more on my weekend...see protected

Day 6 in my "working 12 days straight with no day off, but at least i get some OT".  Day 2 in the IV room.  it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOO cool...it's just me and my hood, my music and my meds.  I don't have to worry about chit chatting with co-workers i don't like.  I wouldn't mind being a tech....and just making IV's my whole life. hahahahaha....too bad it pays nothing.

But before going into the IV room, i have to go through pretty much what surgeons go through before surgery.  We have to scrub in with iodine and put on all the gear...head covers and shoe covers.  but the coolest thing is the iodine scrub.  like on ER you see them with a bar of soap and like a separate scrubber thing right? well, we have these disposable things that's a sponge on one side and a scrubber on the other...and the whole thing is already doused in iodine.  so you just lather up with the sponge side....and and then flip the thing around and scrub with the scrubber side...and then you just throw the whole thing away. SOOOOO COOOOOL!!!! hahahahahaha.

But i've been watching MTV's The Inferno, where road rules players go against real world-ers.  And my most FAVORITE player is CORAL, hands down.  that girl is SUCH a biatch...but in a good way.  She doesn't take crap from anyone! And everyone one her team, girls AND GUYS are totally intimidated by her.  She's my hero.  One example...there's this girl Julie, and they both pretty much dislike each other intensely.  And so one day they get in a fight and julie tells the rest of the cast members that she just wants to settle issues by wrestling with coral on the front lawn.  And so the rest of the cast members run off to tell coral cuz they all knew that coral would totally kick julie's arse.  Anyhow, so coral finds out about julie's wrestling challenge and she yells, "i don't WRESTLE.....i F*CKING beat B*TCHES UP!!!"  HAHAHAHA. I LOVE CORAL.  Plus she's hot...and she's a 32DD...non-implanted!!

GOOOOOOOOOOOO coral!!

OH, and on oprah, today, these two fashion people were on the show...and they stated that shorts can be worn to the beach/gym...but never as part of fashion.  And oprah was like this may be a shocker to most people...but i was like YEAH...i've known that since i was little...i NEVER wear shorts...i think it looks so gross.  They said to wear a light skirt instead.

Today was my first day working in the IV room and it was SOOO much better than what i have been doing.  However, it was also a lot more work...i worked literally from 7-3:30 with just a half hour break...and the whole time you're on your feet making IV's and kinda preparing stuff for the next day.  It's sooo cool....i'm MAKING people's medications! Hopefully, i'll be doing no more delivering medicine stuff...i just want to MAKE stuff.

OH...where can i get a scrubs that are made for small people? I have the hopital's smalls...and they're HUGE....the top it like halfway down to my knees..i look ridiculous.

On an entirely different note, I watched In America this weekend...and it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOo SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good.  SOOOOOOOOOOO good.  Too bad that year, it was pitted against Monster and The Hours and STUPID Lord of the Rings that year at the emmy's.  i am sorry, but i think lord of the rings it totally overrated.  I haven't seen any of them yet...and I have no desire to.  I feel like movies these days have become soooo overwhelmingly overdone with technical advances....it sorta cheapens the movie.

The cinematography in In America is very simple and refreshing...it has an almost indie flick feel.  And the story is soooooooooo good.  EVERYONE GO SEE IT! it's out on dvd now!

Next on my list: whale rider, eternal sunshine, sister magdelene, y tu mama tambien

So i got my haircut.  The guy who was supposed to cut my hair got caught in traffic.  And since i was already washed up and ready to go, this girl cut my hair.  I asked for a bob with a little bit of layering.  I got that short boy cut that i've got a few times before.  It doesn't really look bad...but it's not waht i wanted...and now i have to grow it out again.  So my hair is SHORT again! hahahaha.  oh well.

I brought some clothes from home for the summer.  And i tried on this skirt that i had worn in college...the hip/butt part is too small now! I'm becoming hip-py...i think i like it!

For more insights into my weekend, see protected.

So i think i BOMBED by biochem final.  Sigh.  I always do bad in classes where prof's try to simplify the material and instead just teach lotsa lotsa material on a really shallow level.  It totally screws me up....i'm a THINKER...i like to reason things out. This exam covered cellular metabolism...good old kreb cycle, glycolysis and all that.  But since we were short of time, and the prof. insisted that he cover the rest of the semester according to the material listed on the syllabus.  SO we covered 5 chapters of metabolism and all the related pathways in a VERY short amount of time.

SO when i went to study for the final, and since the class IS biochemistry, i focused mainly on the biochemical reactions that occur from one molec to another in all the pathways.  Does that sound reasonable to you?

NOPE...on the final, when it came to the main pathways, all he asked for were the names of the structures.  NOTHING else...nothing biochemical.  Instead, he focused HEAVILY on all the side pathways...and how they affect the main pathway.  And if you know the pathways, you'd know that NADH and ATP and stuff like that affects like a TRILLION pathways.  How can you possibly remember them all?  And he didn't even ask why or how they afftect the pathways...

how is that more important than understanding the chemical processes in the MAIN metabolic pathways?    So since 60% of the exam was all those little pathways and 40% were on the main pathways (all of which were just naming sturctures)...i think i did not so well. 

Why do prof's do that?! no one really learns anything that way.  I would rather not learn ALL the material and learn the stuff he does teach VERY well.  For example, when i took biochem in college, my biochem I prof did 29 out of 36 chapters in ONE semester.  I learned nothing.  For biochem 2, i had a diff prof.  he did FOUR chapters...but totally in depth.  it was great.

SO now, i have a whole bunch of biochemical processes in my brain..TOTALLY un-used.  I shall wipe them out by watchiing HOURS of TV today. kee hee hee.

On a better note: I"M DONE...i'm DOOOOOONE...will til i take that final in sept...but whatever, for now, i'm DOOOOOOONE.  This year went by FAST.  THREE more years....next year is gonna be killer...i have to study FO' real next year...no more fooling around. 

OH OH...and i'm doing dragonboat racing this summer up here on the charles river (or CHAHLES).  first race is up here june 13th!! I'm so excited...it'll be like rafting...but different. hahahaha.  I'm gonna be SUPER BUFF and without having to go to the gym!!

SOOOOOO tired.  My brain is like this: apfnq;lj4n0z97g9023i4j5;knmsp9gf87qirjlgfaj;ldfkjt

after 2:30 today, i will have just ONE more final and then i'm FREEE. FREEEEEEEEEEEE.  However, my last final is ...dum dum dum...Biochem.  sigh.  another not so liked course.  Especially since the prof ran out of time and crammed all of metabolism into two measly weeks, a very daunting load of info in a very short time. 

AND I WANNA WATCH THE LAST FRIEND'S EPISODE TONIGHT.  And I still have my recording of this week's Queer Eye sitting in my VCR, waiting to be watched.

I should have watched that last night instead of watching the 2 hour "Daughter from Danang" documentary for the SECOND time.  It's about an Amerasian woman's first visit back to vietnam since she was airlifted out of vietnam at the end of the war.  It's so interesting cuz what happens isn't the story book reunion we all think it'll be.  WHY did i watch that for TWO hours?  Especially since I've seen it before.  DAYAM, i'm such a sucker for documentaries.

on a totally irrelevant note, GOOOOOOOO SPURS.  HAHAHAHA. Lakers SUCK!

The dean wrote me back.  She's going to allow students two choices as two when to retake the exam.

Choice 1: This saturday 10AM-noon

Choice 2: Take an incomplete in the class for now and retake the exam Sept. 3, after which the incomplete would be removed.

WHAT TO DO!!! I know usually, it would suck to have to study in the summer...but in this case, my Pharmacokinetics II class in the Fall is CUMULATIVE as well...and I'm talking cumulative over BOTH semesters...so i would have to re-study the stuff anyhow. 

SO....should i take the test in september and have my perfect weekend at home as planned...or should i take it this saturday and get it over with...and having a rushed, crappy weekend home (if i don't go home this weekend, i won't be able to until june 5th).

*UPDATE* I've decided...I'm taking it in September.  I have still have two more finals to go...but the time saturday rolls around, I would have taken 6 finals in 6 days...and saturday would make it 7 finals in 7 days (since i had almost finished the final the first time around)...and i am TIRED.  My brain shuts down at 11:30 now.  No joke...at 11:30 sharp, i start doing the 'my eye moves and scans the page but i have no idea what i'm reading' thing.  And then i have to go to bed and get up early the next morning to cram...like now...except that i'm obviously online and not really cramming too hard.

So i'm taking it in sept...with a FRESH mind and not a thoroughly used mind...and I will study ALL summer for it.  MUAHAHAHAHA

i FINKIN HAAAAAAAATE the people in my class. What a bunch of idiotic, immature MORONS.  So, today, i had a final in my Pharmacokinetics class, which is BY FAR the most challenging class I've ever taken in my whole life.  It's all about predicted how a drug will behave in the body after it's administered...and there are like 10,000 factors to consider...and there's a lot of predicting the curve that the degradation of drug will follow...and just a lot of abstract, heavily theoretical stuff.  On top of that, the prof is notoriously VERY tough...he likes to ask us definitions...and if they're not written VERBATIM (and i'm not exaggerating...VERBATIM) we get points off.  And there were a good 30 definitions to memorize for today's exam.  And i'm not talking one word definitions...these definitions are a paragraph long each.  He also likes to ask a bunch of true or false questions...each of which are also a paragraph like with many many statements in them.  And he'll make one little word false and ALL the rest true...and most people miss a lot there. 

ANYHOW...back to the idiots...1.5 hours into our 2 hour exam, the fire alarm went off.  We were told to leave the room...and of course kids started cheating.  FINE...that in itself is finkin annoyiing...but if you're going to cheat, at least DON'T GET CAUGHT.  And it's specifically the viet FOBS...not to be racist..but they cheat whenever they can.  I've seen it many times before.  They always seat themselves so that they're within cheating distance...and there's a whole bunch of them.  And they are FINKIN annoying...always talking loud in vietnamese...and cheating in vietnamese and laughing about it cuz they think they're so clever.

So i personally saw two groups of viet fobs BLATANTLY cheating...this one guy was showing his friends what his predicted curve was...and he was doing it IN THE AIR...like pretending to write on a blackboard.  THis other girl took her calculator WITH her when she evacuated even tho we were told to leave everything in the room...and starts CALCULTING answers for her friends to see. 

And so apparently there were other clusters of CHEATERS...including a cluster who was MORONIC enough to do it in front of the DEAN! THe finkin DEAN.  And since the dean saw it with her own eyes...and since other people reported the other people cheating, our ENTIRE class has to come in SATURDAY morning to RETAKE the exam.  Mind you, studying for this exam is PURE HELL because everything has to be exact.  There's no partial credit...nothing. AND...AND it's CUMULATIVE.

And it totally sucks cuz our last final was friday at 8AM...so half the class is out of state and had plans to go home either friday night or saturday morning.  And now everyone has to reschedule.  My two friends have to somehow find another flight back to cali.  Another friend was planning to move saturday...and now she can't even really re-study for the exam cuz she'll be packing.

it was kinda weird tho...people seemed annoyed, but no one seemed MAD about it.  If they were, they didn't show it.  I SHOWED IT.   i was YELLING.  And i kept giving the viet fobs that i saw cheating the EVIL EYE and screaming, not nice things their way. 

AAAAAAAARGH...i guess it's not THAT big of a deal...but it's like the whole year, I KNOW that I'll be done FRIDAY, MAY 7th.  And I look forward to that the WHOLE time...and everyday I think to myself, just 5 more days, just 4 more days, etc.  And then all of a sudden, I have to take ANOTHER exam...in my HARDEST class.  And I had just spent the past two days studying hard core for today...and all for nothing...cuz I had not studied AT ALL for my remaining THREE finals because I knew today's would be the hardest one.  And now what? I potentially sacrificed my grades in my other three classes for NOTHING?! it IS a big deal.

UUUUUUUUGh..these people are in a PROFESSIONAL GRADUATE program.  you're studying things that you'll need to SAVE LIVES and HEAL PEOPLE.  Will it really do you good to CHEAT? you can't cheat when you become a pharmacist and the doctor asks you for dosage suggestions...you can't cheat when a patient asks you what the side effects are.  FINKIN IDIOTS!!!!

I'm so mad that i'm just sitting at my desk crying.  And for those of you that know me, i ONLY cry when i'm REALLY mad.  I don't cry at the movies...i don't cry at funerals...i didn't cry when a softball bashed me in the eye and fractured my orbit and nose...ONLY when i'm mad.  lemme tell you, those viet fobs best watch out. 

And my daddy's bday is this friday and i was going to go home right after my final to have dinner with him, cuz my dad's the coolest! but now i can't. FINKIN A.

P.S. I just wrote an email to the dean expressing my outrage and encouraging her to FAIL the kids that she witnessed cheating. Don't mess with me!