July 29, 2002

• sigh…back at work.  apparently, everyone here was under the impression that i was ill and that’s why i wasn’t here thurs and fri last week.  They kept asking me if i was ok.  this doctor/researcher even told me, “hmmm…it looks like you could use a few more days off”  UGH!  i am TIRED, okay.

  
  

  the retreat went by FAST.  it is confirmed…i am OLD.   i remember when we used to stay up all night playing cards, then go to the diner and talk til the sun came up.  get mebbe an hour of sleep and be up in time for breakfast.  I’d feel a little tired, but not tired enough to have to sacrifice my free time for naps. 

  
  

  SIGH…how times have changed.  i sleep at 2, can barely get up at 7:30 and naps during free time are absolutely necessary.  For example, most of my free time friday was used up for praise practice (although i did manage to squeeze in an hour nap).  so i told myself that i would make it up the next day, especially since all my friends and especially my very good friend would be there by friday night.  And so, i’m asleep friday night at 3ish…wake up at 8, miss breakfast.  I’m barely awake for the keynote, even tho i had a good 5 hours sleep.  And finally, free time rolls around.  I say i’ll take a little nap and then go watch my very good friend play ball.  But does that happen, NOOOOOOO.  i ended up taking a good 3.5 hour nap and then free time was over. 

  
  

  WHAT IS UP WITH THAT? i suck  i had NO free time.  But anyway, i thought the speaker was GREAT…it was like being at Comedy Cellar and church at the same time.  But most importantly, it allayed my fears that i had royally screwed up my life by not going to med school.  Because as much as i knew that the profession wasn’t for me, all the antagonism from my parents and their friends made me doubt myself at times.  But at the retreat, it was like God was telling me, “you’ll be ok…just do your thing, girl…do what you gotta do, I’ll take care of you.”  SO MED SCHOOL CAN KISS MY ASS!!! WOOHOO!!!

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